when nothing matters
when i give up.

i wanna say good bye to you.

it's tough.
it seems everyday
routine
between us.
i'm tired of it.
i tried to bear with it.
you made me feel worthless
and unwanted.
i'm sad to say that i still feel that way.

and so yesterday night went out after church to meet my lovely poly friends
friends
not just CLASSMATES.
hahaha
minghui is leaving for aussie. :)
its like a meet up before she leaves.
i need my holiday too!
i need shopping therapy.
i feel that i'm sad.
so i think i shld buy some stuff
and make myself happy.
yea. though its kinda late now
i think i still wanna go for a little shopping later.
yea.
just to cheer myself up.

i don't see a point for me to blog actually.
mayb i shld just delete this meaningless blog.

and i miss her.
no one understands
not even you.

i feel so helpless and lonely
that i wanna cry out LOUD.
and you're the one who made me feel this way.

can anyone make things right again?

5 more days baby.
and soon you'll be gone. :(

i hate being me.