looks like i will never be able to be happy.
being happy is never gonna happen to me.
i'll only be happy for awhile
not for long.

sometimes i feel that it is really time for me to be real independent
then i wonder
so what's the point of having a boyfriend if i have to be independent
i am really stress
no one is there for me to sulk at to talk to.
not even my very own boyfriend.
so i'm here to sulk to my blog.
i doubt anyone hardly some to visit my blog
except maybe one or two who really care.
well
whoever is reading
please keep me in prayer
alot prayer
i feel like i'm going to collapse anytime
i need a pillar to lean on.

1st i went to school this afternoon to go my ns5 which is still not done til now.
i was being dragged out of bed, out of responsibility over my project
to be here online.
and here i am online
and my groupmates told me that i just need to check the slides.
come online just to check the slides?!
sigh.
i was going to sleep you know?
but it's alright
that wasn't the worst part
nothing of today has a WORST part.
just that everything tgt become the WORST.
waited for them for dinner
they didn't wanna go to the hawker
so i decided to go home instead
come home
thinking that my lovely brother will be at home to eat dinner with me
in the end
i ate maggi mee at home alone.
watching the tv
then my brother say
jie, can you dont watch too much tv
i cannot practice my piano
WTH
you wanna practice piano dont know how to use your mouth to ask?

right now i am really tired
but not sleepy at all
everything's jumbled up in my mind.
my life's screwed.
not even my closest one could be here for me.
it is not major actions i need
it is the minor ones
you'll nv understand.
i'm really tired.

i feel weak.
mentally physically spiritually and emotionally.
basically i am just so weak.
i have no one.
not even you baby.
i feel so lost.
i got no one to talk to.
not even you baby.

i miss the times we used to have
the fun.
not all this misunderstanding.