people like me deserve to be a loner
my biaojie whom i was closed to
is no longer close to me
my friends from sec school are dispersed now
only in contact with wenyan.
my friends other than wenyan and all are all guys.
and my boyfriend hate it when i wanna go out with my guy friends
what is his problem
do i look like a machine to him.
i kinda thankful that i'm in nursing.
just keep me occupied and busy.

i don't have many friends.
there are not many people i can talk to.

my boyfriend
the only one i hope to have love from
love me too much.
over protective.
over posessive.
i feel so alone.
i just don't deserve anyone to be there for me
even now i am alone.
i can't rely on anyone.
no one.
i gave all to him.
and this is what i get in return.

tell me what to do.
i'm lost.
i'm sad.
and there's nothing i can do about it.
cos i've already been made believe that i deserve all these.