there's so many things i wanna blog about.
but i really got no time.
holiday seems to be REALLY short.
feels like there isn't any holiday at all.
back to school again
my 1st day of school.
busy like crap.
1st day of school and i realize there is a lot of work i'll need to hand in.
and i just got no time for it.
anyway church camp was great.
it could be better though.
yea.
actually it's kinda screwed up.
anyway who cares.
it's over.
and i'm glad.
yea.
didn't felt like i could really enjoy my church camp.
becos it is as stressful as any of my normal school days.
doing stuff, meeting "datelines" just like any other projects.
feel that it is kinda meaningless.
at least last year there was some team building.
this year i felt really detached.
anyway
who cares.
its over
and i'm glad.
damn.

unhappiness.
uncontented.
dissatisfaction.


well
it's sucks to be back in school anyway.
though my class started like at 11
i felt so tired.
so damn tired.
drag myself out of the bed.
been having headache the entire day.
ah!
i just feel pissed.
so many stuffs to do.
can't the school just spare us all this work during our holiday.
and can't my church just spare us.
i'm really tired.
i'm breaking apart.
and it's hard for me to tell you.
cos it's not like you can understand.
you'll probably see it as an excuse.
but i am really tired.
tired of all these.
tired of life.
tired of living.
tired of all these acts which pple put up infront of each other everyday.
i just wanna sleep for very long.
i'm not running away from the problem.
i just wanna stay away for a while.
i need to cry out loud.
yet i just couldn't do so.

i need my talk with GOD.
i long for more.
more than this.